I've discovered how completely desolate life can be when I'm reluctant to open myself up . . .
My guard, that was set up eons ago, has become an inseparable part of me. No matter how apparent it becomes that there is so much passing me bye on the other side of that wall, I may never be able to over come it- to break through to the world of laughter, love, tears and reality.
. . . even though I may think that I am warm and protected hiding beneath my safety bubble . . . inside I feel empty.
Can one ever become completely independent of their old self . . . to move on to bigger and better things, free from the constant worries of broken hearts and disappointments?
Lately I have been reminded a number of times that it "Is better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all"
How true is that? And how does one know what love truly is?
Some say love is the "can't eat, can't sleep" sorta feeling, that "love is when you don't want to go to sleep because reality is better than any dream could ever be".
But then you look at all those divorced couples out there who thought that they had that feeling . . . where did they go wrong?
It is situations like those which frighten me back into my shell . . .
~remember: it's not the one you can live with- but the one you can't live without- who is worth fighting for~
2 comments:
Hey Lauren...
Didn't realize you were still posting like a blogging-fiend... I guess I should've known :op
Anyways, I haven't checked here in ages due to my work. Hopefully in the next week or so, I'll be able to start being a regular on here. In the time being, a quote for you.
I absolutely love it.
It's potent...
Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket–safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.
- CS Lewis.
There you have it.
I won't give you 'relationship advice', or suggest whether you should sequester yourself deeper, versus become liberated of your walls... because that'd be kinda presumptuous. But I can hint, and shed light on the subject. Hope you find the quote enlightening :o)
you can become independant from your old self...i should know i've done it...if you want to know more i can tell you but i don't need to share this with everyone...but it's possible
on the subject of love...of which i know very little...it's different for everyone...sometimes it's just being around them that's enough...but it's different for everyone...and ican't tell you why it doesn't work out for some...cuz i don't know...hmm i'm depressing myself right now...talk to you later
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