swallow my mind body and soul
envelop me into your glacial numbness
transfer your influence upon my dominion
such power such placidness
one can not excuse
so utterly appealing to the senses
a solace impossible to deny
despite all order of conviction
all pain promised to be extinguished
for a time
drink on drown it out
extinguish the pain
embrace the senseless world
turn to that which heals
in a simple way
through thoughtless action
adhere to the rules of humanity
ignore that lone voice of reason
it's tardy healing can wait
instant relief
a blank mind
~immersed in folly~
Monday, January 28, 2008
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Cloverfield
84 minutes long--including previews. The first 20-30 minutes was an introduction to the characters we'd be following and who we would ultimately watch die some horrific and untimely deaths.
We went through an hour of shaking, plunging, falling video recordings and when the camera was actually focused on the happenings we were exposed to blood, monsters, rats, and death.
It was a film that was destined for two things: to cause motion sickness and to scare (especially young children [oh and the girl beside me with a strong hand squeeze])
But you'd say... it's rated 18A for violence, language, and gore, it should not be an issue whether young children would be frightened by it.
But let i remind you of the multitude of responsible parents in this marvelous world of ours. For within the first minutes of the action in the film, a young girl (and when i say young i mean our estimates for her age were between 5 and 8) seated behind us said "Daddy i'm scared."
And WHAT, you may ask, did this responsible parent do. Well, of course he said "Shit, not this again!" and did nothing at all except perhaps hold her hand...
WHAT IS WRONG WITH OUR WOLRD?!
The movie ended like one of Ibsen's plays, except with less solution and more deaths.
A fellow audience member exclaimed what everyone else was thinking "are you kidding me!?" (we received no answer)
And the boys, well, they've learned their lesson, they know they failed. And so next time... Girls get to choose the movie!
~time for a happy ever after~
We went through an hour of shaking, plunging, falling video recordings and when the camera was actually focused on the happenings we were exposed to blood, monsters, rats, and death.
It was a film that was destined for two things: to cause motion sickness and to scare (especially young children [oh and the girl beside me with a strong hand squeeze])
But you'd say... it's rated 18A for violence, language, and gore, it should not be an issue whether young children would be frightened by it.
But let i remind you of the multitude of responsible parents in this marvelous world of ours. For within the first minutes of the action in the film, a young girl (and when i say young i mean our estimates for her age were between 5 and 8) seated behind us said "Daddy i'm scared."
And WHAT, you may ask, did this responsible parent do. Well, of course he said "Shit, not this again!" and did nothing at all except perhaps hold her hand...
WHAT IS WRONG WITH OUR WOLRD?!
The movie ended like one of Ibsen's plays, except with less solution and more deaths.
A fellow audience member exclaimed what everyone else was thinking "are you kidding me!?" (we received no answer)
And the boys, well, they've learned their lesson, they know they failed. And so next time... Girls get to choose the movie!
~time for a happy ever after~
Monday, January 21, 2008
How can a Loser ever Win
I want the world to know, especially a few particular members, that i am no longer the girl you can use and dispose-of as desired. A thoughtless compliment will get you nowhere. I will stand firm.
I will NOT be trampled on.
No matter who you may be, what our relationship may have been in the past, or what you've planned for it to be in the future. Easy will have no part in it.
As they've said before nothing truly cherished comes easy. Working hard is a part of life, and from this moment on, one i will conform to (as will you if you wish to gain ground).
~with me, hard will come easy~
I will NOT be trampled on.
No matter who you may be, what our relationship may have been in the past, or what you've planned for it to be in the future. Easy will have no part in it.
As they've said before nothing truly cherished comes easy. Working hard is a part of life, and from this moment on, one i will conform to (as will you if you wish to gain ground).
~with me, hard will come easy~
Monday, January 14, 2008
Listen... i have nothing to say
speak.
supposedly i have something to say. At least that's what my public speaking teacher says.
me, in public speaking. what was i thinking?! well, obviously i WASN'T. Cause i have nothing to say. at least not to an audience. What i have to say is private, bitter, angry and poisoning: nothing anybody wants to hear or should hear.
My assignment for this bloody class however, is "how i got to this point in time (enrolled in the class)" and "what am i going to do with it".
pfft... how i got there was a moment of weakness... and under the false pretenses that i will overcome this fear and gain some confidence while in front of a crowd.
what i will do with it? use it to torture the two people who got me there for the rest of eternity!
how would that go as my opening, introductory speech? i feel an +A coming on.
-silent as the night-
supposedly i have something to say. At least that's what my public speaking teacher says.
me, in public speaking. what was i thinking?! well, obviously i WASN'T. Cause i have nothing to say. at least not to an audience. What i have to say is private, bitter, angry and poisoning: nothing anybody wants to hear or should hear.
My assignment for this bloody class however, is "how i got to this point in time (enrolled in the class)" and "what am i going to do with it".
pfft... how i got there was a moment of weakness... and under the false pretenses that i will overcome this fear and gain some confidence while in front of a crowd.
what i will do with it? use it to torture the two people who got me there for the rest of eternity!
how would that go as my opening, introductory speech? i feel an +A coming on.
-silent as the night-
Monday, January 7, 2008
Flip to a Blank Page
A new year brings about renewal. A chance to start again, make changes, learn from your mistakes.
Really, every day can be a chance for transformation, but it seems almost more powerful, more absolute when done at the birth of a New Year.
For Christmas, i received a few objects which seemed to be following a sort of theme: that of my confusions and uncertainties for the future, my continual failures regarding relationships, and the reshaping of ones life upon the realization that your initial goals, dreams, and desires are stupid and unrealistic.
So this year, as the sun rises offering new life and a second chance i've come to realize i must move on. Forget all which i once striven for and wake up from my dreams of ignorance and naiveté.
Open your eyes girl and face the real world. Out here things are not coated with chocolate, and people are not characters from the fairy tales.
So to all you out there who have also made resolutions for this near year... i wish all the best for you.
~and as for you: as far as i'm concerned you are just another picture to burn~
Really, every day can be a chance for transformation, but it seems almost more powerful, more absolute when done at the birth of a New Year.
For Christmas, i received a few objects which seemed to be following a sort of theme: that of my confusions and uncertainties for the future, my continual failures regarding relationships, and the reshaping of ones life upon the realization that your initial goals, dreams, and desires are stupid and unrealistic.
So this year, as the sun rises offering new life and a second chance i've come to realize i must move on. Forget all which i once striven for and wake up from my dreams of ignorance and naiveté.
Open your eyes girl and face the real world. Out here things are not coated with chocolate, and people are not characters from the fairy tales.
So to all you out there who have also made resolutions for this near year... i wish all the best for you.
~and as for you: as far as i'm concerned you are just another picture to burn~
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