I Don't want to be Patient

i'm unusual, not so typical, way to smart to be waiting around...

it seems that i run into this same wall of issues more often then i'd like.  Silly decisions or no decisions at all seem to be the path i've been stuck on. afraid of complicating things usually ends up complicating them more than they would have otherwise. 

with no indication of deliverance within view... i'm left sitting, waiting, and wishing, oh and going crazy.

stop merely tipping your toes in and testing the outcome. jump in and enjoy

~the smart move-giving up on the waiting- is coming soon~

as you slip away

we all have a reason, to feel as we do

to hate, to love, to curse, and to fear

each given the freedom

yet some still lack reason and logic

they remain incapable of thinking for themselves,

of acting on their own behalf

on seeing their own faults and admitting it...

so dream on

stay in your world of lies

set-up camp in your isolation

savor the island you've created for yourself

planes will pass unnoticed

content in their truths

un-daunted in their path

~dancing in my own shades of purple~

#%@*#&@

Angry bitter words flood my mind. Such heartless, indecent actions my heart and mind can not even begin to comprehend!

I tried to understand, i tried to talk... wanting to hear your side. but nothing. Silence filled our short time together and i left feeling more confused than before. 

And now... you spend many long minutes... nearly an hour pouring your heart out and trying to explain such actions to a spectator.

I see only cowardice and arrogance in such behaviour...

and no loss for me

~the real angry words i'll keep to myself~