You Shoulda

Sometimes we wait too long, then when we finally know for sure and we act on it, we're too late. Too late to say "I love you." To late to say "stay." Too late to beg forgiveness. To late to say "I care." To late to say "no" or too late to say "I do."
Whatever it is that you want to say, do, or request... don't miss your chance. Regret runs deep, through your heart, mind, soul and future. Don't let regret be your memory of me.

~I love~

Your Love Does Not Keep Me Afloat

Your words echo in my heart
they resonate in my mind.
The voices all scream out
and pull me to the past.

I need to escape the waves
continuously lapping my heart.
They pull me under
and the tide whips me around.

I search for the land
my lighthouse to guide me back-
pull me to safety
rescue me from these waters.

The dangers draw near
an attack from all sides
as I gasp for air
I can't help but smile.

Your affections misguide me
I require more than words.
You lack devotion
you have no anchor to hold me down.

I urge you to retain your love
await one who is free to accept.
For mine has been offered
and accepted without suppression.

More than I ever received from any of you.


~board the ship and sail away~

Just In Time?

It's taken many months, but I have finally purchased a brand new vehicle. My first! It has been a stressful experience as I'm indecisive in the easiest of situations. When it comes to making a decision that will cost me for 5 years, it's a wonder I ever reached a conclusion!
Yesterday, only minutes after verbally agreeing to the purchase, my old vehicle needed boosting. It took some time in the cold, but Boy got me home.
After 10+ cm of snow last night, I went to dig him out this morning to head to work. Once again he didn't start. As I already slept in, I had no time to boost him again. Thankfully my roommate handed me the keys to his truck and sent me out the door.

After work I signed the contract for my new vehicle.

Later at home my roommates and I went out to boost my Boy. We failed. It is a no go...
Tomorrow I am supposed to be driving in with the old and out with the new. Is this possible if the old can't drive?

~why must my Boy be so undependable?~

Sad Eyes and Confident Shadows

Confined in their minds
As one merely to pity
Sad eyes'n lonely hands

The younger prevails
In the trek to fidelity
As no one surmis'd

~someone, somewhere has faith~