How Bad Do I Want It?

I could dress like a slut too- walk around flaunting myself for all to see . . . But what would be achieved in doing that? I'd gain new 'friends' and 'popularity', but for what? All for claiming to be someone I'm not? Not only would it be a pointless act, but it would be degrading, and an endeavour I do not wish to partake in.

-enjoying life does not always mean being in the spotlight-

Short and Sweet

The weather calls for rain
I bubble with great anticipation
Oh the unexplainable exuberance that comes from the simple elements of life
The refreshing sensation of rain rolling across my face sends shivers through my body
The invigorating joy received through the touch of rain casts flashes of the past through my mind
All the times of genuine contentment, yet which lasted for mere moments, dance in my mind never to be forgotten

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People are potentially sweet for short times
There are few who become sweeter with time
Trust not what these sugared people say
For you will believe them long enough for them to drive you crazy
And turn all you ever were, and all that ever charmed you- against you
It's inevitable
A way to life
All that was once sweet has been left marinating in others desires
Your passed pleasures become spoiled
Never again to brighten your day

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The rain, the stars and chocolate
will they one day lack all meaning to me . . .

*hidden from the world, in hopes of surviving another day with my heart intact*

One pass! And one fail?

Today was the day in which I was tested on my driving skills.
A very friendly lady (Teri-Lynn) was my examiner. Once I had completed the test, and past, she informed me that I had 'above average observation' skills and I was to tutor my sister (who had, earlier in the day, taken her G2 test) on these expertise capabilities. And for all those who make foolish propositions that I am an inadequate driver, Terri-Lynn informed me that I am a sensational driver! So HA HA to all those skeptics out there :)

In other news, while my driving test was a success, my other test may not have been.
It all began with the sore throat I awoke with on Wednesday morning. My mom and I thought nothing of it, we often woke up with sore throats in hotels, due to the dry atmosphere. However, the sore throat persisted through the rest of the day and on to the next (which was today). When I told my mother about it, she suggested I tell my father (who just happens to be a physician). He 'did the doctor thing' and checked my throat, and determined I had an 'enlarged thyroid' and needed blood tests?!
I had never given blood before- I had once attempted to donate blood, that is a different story for another time. So this adventure was not one I looked forward to. However, it was one that must be done.

And so I began my trek to the clinic. Actually, my mom drove me- I was too weak to walk to the clinic, even though it was situated around the corner and I am able to see it from the house.

Because it was my first time having to get a blood test, I was given a room to myself and a bed to lie on! I was extremely nervous, but the blood sucker (nurse) was very kind and gentle. And all my thoughts and fears that had flooded my mind from horror stories I had been told in the past, were in vain!

The results should be ready in about a week, and at that point I will have to go visit the doctor who, other then at social events, I haven't seen in about 13 years. It'll be extremely awkward and unpleasant- but must be done (or so I've been told)

-the joys of life often don't last long-

Near Death Experience?

Home at last, though at one point I thought it would never come, and that thought did not come to me while we ran through the Toronto airport in search of our gate (in reality employs should know the way around the airport so as they do not point their customers in the complete wrong direction!)
At times I've had doubts about many peoples constant complaints about transport trucks and their drivers. I had never run into any extreme difficulties concerning them. Until today that is.

We were turning a corner, driving . . . Fast enough, and a transport came at us, on our side of the road! He was not passing anyone or anything. In fact, there were no other vehicles in sight! I did what any logical girl would do, I screamed! Course, that did not change the situation for the space between the transport and I was closing quickly, and there seemed to be little prospect of the transports route changing. So, I used the next best logic I could conjure up in my desperate state- brake and turn on to the shoulder! Thankfully we did not collide (which I'm sure everyone has discovered due to my writing this right now) but my heart was racing and I was in near shock. I would no longer be the one to defend their dignity . . .
Which is a pity, cause I had recently made allies with a transport I had been traveling with.

I have now arrived home, I have completed a few errands and now prepare the house for visitors tomorrow. I have also discovered that I have misplaced some important addresses.
Sorry Meg- they may be a few days late

-the joys of a mother's hectic life -

Continual Twists and Turns in our Path

What is a holiday without an adventure?

First of all it is relaxing and second of all it is nonexistent in my families vacation files.

This holiday surpasses a number of the past 'adventure' we were able to experience. For the past 3-ish days my dad has been in and out of the hospital until he (finally) had surgery this afternoon.
The reason for this is most likely due to a torn retina or something along these lines. The cause of this is unknown but, as far as the doctors are able to tell, have nothing to do with his other medical difficulties he has been presented with these past few months. Thank God!

However, many of our travels and future plans have been put on hold. After his surgery he is not supposed to fly for at least 1 month. So, there goes mom and dads cruise they had planned on taking to celebrate their 25th anniversary (which will take place on 06/6/06 [so all these sudden difficulties should not of been a big surprise, jk]). As for the possibilities in which mom and dad are able to take in order to return home- they are limited.
Until he is released from the hospital and an alternative route to flying can be planned, I will be playing mom to my 3 younger siblings- Hurray! Though i feel this is a position I have been covering since the age of 7.

-could I set a record for the youngest mother ever? or how bout most immature?!-

Lunch with a Private

Today I had the opportunity to see a friend I hadn't seen since grad in June. It brought back a number of memories from highschool days. It's hard to believe that those days were only one year ago (well, for the majority of us). He had a number of stories and new experiences to share. Who thought the Canadian Army could be so interesting . . .

I was very upset with the poor playing of the Calgary Flames this evening. They let down their thousands of fans at the rink as well as everyone in the comfort of their own homes. It seems rather pathetic that a team with then name Flames were beaten to a pulp by the Ducks.
As disappointed as I am, I am completely unable to be agitated by this loss. The Duck's, though I won't ever admit this to a particular person, have a place in my heart, not necessarily because of what they have accomplished as a team, but because of my childhood craze with "the Mighty Ducks" and Joshua Jackson. Who would not have a soft spot for the Ducks if they've ever seen those movies.

Though Calgary lost- the Jays won! . . . so it was not a completely shameful night for Canada.

-Love is when you don't want to go to sleep because reality is better then any dream-