What Do You Accept?

I found this here and it really spoke to me. Not that it's saying just how I feel, but there is some truth that resonates. That the mind and heart are two mightily opposing forces, neither or which are to be reckoned with, at least not on a continual basis.  

Games of Self Respect

(I wish I knew music... cause in my mind this was a song)

There was passion,

strong and uncontrolled

emanating from our bodies

pulsating through a room

Kiss me hard, strong and true

it could’ve been forever

but more than love got in our way

my hand was not the only thing

you needed to hold

But there was passion,

strong and uncontrolled

emanating from our bodies

pulsating through a room

Kiss me harder, strong and true

I required more than that kiss

it thrilled but did not fulfill

devotion was found only in words

but your actions screamed

But oh was there passion,

strong and uncontrolled

emanating from our bodies

pulsating through a room

Kiss me hard, Kiss me strong, Kiss me true

They’ll thought we’d work it out

find a way to see it through

as if a cat can change it’s coat

and hunt something new

Cause we had passion,

strong and uncontrolled

emanating from our bodies

pulsating through a room

Kiss me hard, strong and true

I told you how I wanted it

Gave you time to tell me too

I was sick of games of chance

I just wanted you.

A sure thing I did not find

at least not with you

your silence was the loudest of all

your answer was clear and loud

There once was passion,

strong and uncontrolled

emanating from our bodies

pulsating through a room

but now there’s no more kisses, we weren’t true

~they're on my side~

She Lay Forgotten

Even flowers flutter in the wind

their stalks bend to the power,

all in a trembling voice.

They shimmer in the sun

warm to the touch and hot to the hand

valued above others.

Here I lie alone

no body, nor son to warm me

his words lost in the silence

as admiration dwindles and falls.

Here she lay forgotten.

Sand cradled and embraced repeatedly

the waves transform each bit

as his charge overpowers,

alters the smallest of cares

generating that worth viewing

and beyond so, wooing

Yet here I lie alone

still no body, nor wave to lap me

the words falter through distance

their admiration dwindles and fails.

Here she lay forgotten.

Creatures sheltered from the elements

trees, ground and rock envelop them

life and health dependent.

Every fancy fulfilled

resulting in a lavish beauty

Cherished and protected.

And here I lay alone

no body, or words to warm me

as the span greatens

the admiration subsides.

How long will she lay forgotten?

~But I tell you that even Solomon with his riches was not dressed as beautifully as one of these flowers [Matthew 6:29]~

You Shoulda

Sometimes we wait too long, then when we finally know for sure and we act on it, we're too late. Too late to say "I love you." To late to say "stay." Too late to beg forgiveness. To late to say "I care." To late to say "no" or too late to say "I do."
Whatever it is that you want to say, do, or request... don't miss your chance. Regret runs deep, through your heart, mind, soul and future. Don't let regret be your memory of me.

~I love~

Your Love Does Not Keep Me Afloat

Your words echo in my heart
they resonate in my mind.
The voices all scream out
and pull me to the past.

I need to escape the waves
continuously lapping my heart.
They pull me under
and the tide whips me around.

I search for the land
my lighthouse to guide me back-
pull me to safety
rescue me from these waters.

The dangers draw near
an attack from all sides
as I gasp for air
I can't help but smile.

Your affections misguide me
I require more than words.
You lack devotion
you have no anchor to hold me down.

I urge you to retain your love
await one who is free to accept.
For mine has been offered
and accepted without suppression.

More than I ever received from any of you.


~board the ship and sail away~

Just In Time?

It's taken many months, but I have finally purchased a brand new vehicle. My first! It has been a stressful experience as I'm indecisive in the easiest of situations. When it comes to making a decision that will cost me for 5 years, it's a wonder I ever reached a conclusion!
Yesterday, only minutes after verbally agreeing to the purchase, my old vehicle needed boosting. It took some time in the cold, but Boy got me home.
After 10+ cm of snow last night, I went to dig him out this morning to head to work. Once again he didn't start. As I already slept in, I had no time to boost him again. Thankfully my roommate handed me the keys to his truck and sent me out the door.

After work I signed the contract for my new vehicle.

Later at home my roommates and I went out to boost my Boy. We failed. It is a no go...
Tomorrow I am supposed to be driving in with the old and out with the new. Is this possible if the old can't drive?

~why must my Boy be so undependable?~

Sad Eyes and Confident Shadows

Confined in their minds
As one merely to pity
Sad eyes'n lonely hands

The younger prevails
In the trek to fidelity
As no one surmis'd

~someone, somewhere has faith~